Yeah, there I sit in the darkest corner of my year, I finally see my failure, after all I've been through, I finally get that. "Mommy, I'm Failed." That's what I told my mom. I drive my car fast, so fast, but I don't where am I going to. I just cried, a lot, like super a lot. "What happen?", the more they asked more tears fallin' through my cheeks. "It's not your fault." They said, to calm me down. But, guys, I'm at the end of my life right now. At least... that what I thought..
Bener kata alvi, kadang kita yang ga paham kenapa harus ada sedih, kadang kita yang belum memaknai kenapa kita dikasih kesedihan lagi dan lagi, "Kenapa aku?", kalo yang terkena adalah orang lain, apa yang bakal kamu lakuin? Will you be like ur friend who will sit with u and cry with you like they did?
That day was a super fine day, I woke up with full energy, I text my friend and set a meet up, and yeah, I was happy, so happy, like I don't even remember 'bout something gonna bring me down. Until that notification, A little notification which totally change my mood. It was a plot twist, my super plot twist. At that point, I can't hear a word, it was crowd but I shut them all, I just want this to end...
Tapi ternyata bener, kadang kita ga harus nunggu terang saat gelap terjadi. Itu yang selama ini salah kita pelajarin. Kadang gelap itu baik, it helps you sleep, it calms you. And it was something you will not recieve if your life always bright. Kadang kita yang harus belajar melihat dalam gelap, kadang kita yang tebiasa dengan cahaya terang membuat ruangan redup sangat menakutkan. It's all on you, it's all on us. Nggak semua yang bercahaya itu matahari, dan gelap seharusnya bukan membuat kita hanya duduk, we can stand and search for the light it self, And somehow, there's some good people, who will join you in your darkside, to help you find the light. And you won't see that if you're always bright.
